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whoa [16 Jul 2010|01:04am]
did i used to like it here?

what happened to this place?

hah

o well.
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2000 Infiniti Q45 for sale [18 Nov 2008|05:12pm]
[ mood | cold ]

Hey Homies,

The time has come, the walrus said, to speak of many things; of having extra cars around, bushconomies, and strings.

I am selling my 2000 Ifiniti Q45 v8 lux sedan. Super nice ride, low miles (93k), all the fancy power everything, black leather interior, champagne exterior, good tires, already invested a fortune upgrading the ignition coils (a common problem with infiniti engines), was kept garaged up until the past six months, etc, etc. it is in great condition and drives like butter melting on a pancake.



here are the specs: http://consumerguideauto.howstuffworks.com/2000-infiniti-q45.htm

the jokers at carmax are selling this car for just under 11k, but i would rather sell it to one of you fine people for less. kelly blue book says the retail is more like 9000, which we all know is crap.

make me an offer for $7000 and it is yours?

let me know if you are interested because it is going on ebay in a few days!

haha thanks!
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advance votes not counted in GA yet [04 Nov 2008|11:34pm]
there are over 2 million votes from advanced voting that have not been counted yet. which explains the insane results in our state. worthless election office!
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[04 Nov 2008|11:05pm]
[ mood | ecstatic ]

OMFG


YESBDASDBHASODGASD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

OBAMA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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[09 Oct 2008|08:05am]
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afternoon naps will be the death of me [12 Sep 2008|06:12am]
[ mood | indescribable ]

taking a nap in the afternoon, no matter how desperately important it seems at the time, is always a bad idea. i have figured that 45 minutes of fitful sleep between the hours of 3:00pm and 6:00pm will almost always without doubt prevent sleep at a reasonable hour that evening and into the following day.

that being said, i'd given into said nap and am still awake.

last night, adrina had a project to complete which entailed a time line of her life. now, i am far from the scrapbooking, stay-at-home soccer mom who keeps notebooks filled with accomplishments of tooth loss and haircuts, so completing an account of the past eight years was difficult, to say the least. if not for the haphazard documentation on livejournal and flickr, it would have been at a total loss. we managed to document 24 major events.

i flipped through the past eight years of my life and was stricken with how often i remarked on misery and stress. i think back on how profound my sadness and deep my self-resentment and cannot fathom how i managed to maintain this relentless optimism and hope. my god, i worked so hard. so hard. i gave so much of myself for so long, thinking that nothing was as important as what you payed into the greater good; i was so naively sanguine about people and humanity. still today, i close my eyes and hope that i was not wrong - that what i did really mattered - that who i was really was something. these days, i close my eyes and open my hands and feel not potential but absence. i fought so hard for who i thought i was and i've lost that. the sense of self and place now feels completely foreign.

i don't know who i am anymore.

i do know one thing for sure. my darling baby girl has a mother. no amount of pride in accomplishment can replace who i am to her and what she means to me. i could not be to her what i am today if i had not left that life behind.

i don't know where to go from here.

i don't know where to go from here.

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Exhibit on blindness lets you see ... nothing [12 Aug 2008|03:17pm]
who wants to go see this with me? i am gonna take adrina.

http://www.atlanticstation.com/press_ajc-exhibit-on-blindness.php

If you were blind, could you navigate your way around a busy city street or distinguish between a $1 bill and a $50 bill if you were trying to buy a beer at a bar?

These are some of the challenges visitors will face at a 20,000-square-foot interactive exhibition coming to Atlantic Station this summer.

Premier Exhibitions, the Atlanta-based company that brought the "Bodies" and "Titanic" shows to the city, is opening "Dialog in the Dark" in late August to give visitors a sense of what it's like to be blind.

For one hour, you'll go through a market, take a boat ride, visit a park and get caught in the middle of a busy street scene with nothing more than a guide and a cane.
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[30 Jul 2008|12:02am]
[ mood | SPOON ]

MAH SPOOOON IS TOOOOO BIG

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Losing the game of life [14 Jun 2008|12:55am]
260k in debt, making 30k a year and own a trailer, which got hit by a tornado. haha
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Worst chess players evah [14 Jun 2008|12:53am]
i am sure that no one else will find this as hilarious as i do!
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moarh! [14 Jun 2008|12:52am]

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making pasta from scratch [14 Jun 2008|12:09am]

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baking bread. hot! [13 Jun 2008|11:27pm]

baking bread. hot!
Originally uploaded by Marynificent
guess who is training to be a chef! oh mayne! them tides, they is a changin!
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also, you missed this [13 Jun 2008|11:25pm]

dry hair
Originally uploaded by Marynificent
red!
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thailand [13 Jun 2008|11:24pm]

morning wedding
Originally uploaded by Marynificent
oh yeah, you missed it!
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easter eggs. omg we are awesome [13 Jun 2008|11:22pm]
you know you missed me. happy late easter!
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gardens are rockin [13 Jun 2008|11:21pm]

gardens are rockin
Originally uploaded by Marynificent
nom nom nom
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omg [13 Sep 2007|02:28am]
[ mood | thirsty ]

i would just like to say that i have not updated in months and today i made three posts. also that i have THE WORST COLD EVER (it is nearing hilarity in the vile sneezing and fever) and i totally blame the cold.

BUT YOU KNOW WHAT ELSE THAT MEANS?

Summer is over! I totally have a cold.

YES

p.s.
I have been traveling a lot this summer. i can't wait for all the leaves to turn. and all the everything else too.


San Francisco


Malibu


Los Angeles (Venice Beach, fuck yeah!)


Mobile, Alabama


Waveland, Mississippi


New Orleans, LA


NYC for the Coney Island Mermaid Parade (i actually went to NYC twice)


Savannah, GA


Hilton Head, SC




p.p.s. goal for this year: move. san francisco or new york city. wait for it.
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News Report On Emo Kids [13 Sep 2007|12:53am]

[00:46] Ed: some 50 year old lady asked me if i was emo when i went to that concert at lakewood
[00:46] mary: loser
[00:47] Ed: i told her i laughed too much to be emo
[00:47] mary: haha
[00:47] mary: i am lolmo
[00:47] Ed: haha
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test [12 Sep 2007|04:15pm]
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[25 Aug 2007|04:38am]
it can be so easy to get angry yet so hard to get by.

if one thing matters, all things matter.

one. step. at. a. time.

Long Overdue Adrina Birthday Post [11 Jul 2007|07:48am]
Intended to be posted on April 12th, 2007.

My darling, my Rose, my baby; Adrina. You are seven years old, no longer the baby I cradled in my arms; no longer with the clenched fists and scrunched angry nose, toothless mouth screaming, frustrated at our mutual inability to communicate. I remember holding you to my chest, both of us sobbing; mine, of exhaustion and fear; yours, exploratory and declarative in a language I could not yet understand; and I recall the calm release when I rocked us both to sleep. I was so frightened by you, this inarticulate helpless creature that I knew nothing about yet felt more deeply connected to than I did my own limbs. I don’t know if I can express how profoundly my commitment to your well-being took root of my soul, how anything and everything came second to you, my sweetest flower, Adrina Rose.

That first year, you didn’t sleep through the night once. So closely we were intertwined, you sleeping in my arms each night so that with only slightest effort could I pull you to my breast, quieting and calming your wakeful nature - so similar to my own. I was determined to give to you of this body, imperfect and often tense, for a full year following your birth. Somehow we pulled through, despite the difficulty of transitioning from working at home to suited corporate daily toil, the trials brought through my own inexperience and impatience, the teething, the fingernails, the exhaustion, and my own frequent and inexplicable sadness. On your first birthday, you had cake. I celebrated by drinking my first beer in almost two years. That night, you slept, but I did not. I awoke frightened by your stillness, in disbelief of your slumber, and woke you to calm my fears. It was then that this seed planted; that you were a babe no longer, nor my angry angel rubbing sleepy eyes at four A.M.

Although I felt as though I had just begun to understand being a mother to this baby, it struck me that I would have to learn to be a mother to this child, my child, ever evolving and challenging, my Adrina Rose. As much as I am yours, life often proves it remarkably difficult for me to grasp that I am someone’s mommy – especially someone as incredible and joyous as you. And while sometimes still, I see seven years of our life together as inconceivable as when I first learned of your impending arrival, what was life before you has faded like dim stars on the horizon of the rising summer sun. You have illuminated the shadows, bringing this dark night into the startling brilliance of your indomitable light. I could never have seen the grassy meadow without your effulgent life; my debt to you is everlasting.



I am terrified of failure, of failing you. An honest representation of the year embodies much of what I most feared, becoming less than you deserved. The year was possibly one of the most difficult of my life. Unquestionably, it was the year that I have labored most rigorously, committing unconscionably long hours to my career, refusing to “fail” despite the seemingly obvious limitations of my one imperfect self. Over the summer, there were days I did not even hear your voice, leaving for work before you woke and returning after you had gone to sleep. I do not know why I thought I could take on such great responsibilities and emerge triumphant and unscathed; I imagine it was in part because my sheer determination and work ethic had seen me through so many challenges, and I was unwilling to believe that I could be less than what was expected, regardless of how unreasonable those expectations might have been. I was so determined to prove people wrong that I undermined myself, proving that worth is not achieved through being a statistical anomaly, but by being of value to those I love.

It was heartbreaking to admit that I had failed you, heartbreaking to fix the situation. As it was when my body embraced you, I felt no choice in matter. You came first, so I abandoned the career which had given me such pride and accomplishment, joining instead an effort more worthy of my work. Beyond the situational catalyst, transitioning to nonprofit work had long been a goal, and the opportunity presented through my love for you would have been unlikely in other circumstance. Being your mommy, the five letters holding keys to a greater world, is a more incredible experience than anything I could have imagined. I give you your world and you, my darling, give me mine. I love you more than words exist, my Adrina Rose.

April 12th, 2006: http://marynificent.livejournal.com/200587.html
April 12th, 2005: http://marynificent.livejournal.com/152282.html
April 12th, 2004: http://marynificent.livejournal.com/99618.html
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plz see why jay smooth haz a flava [18 Jun 2007|08:28pm]
[ mood | cheerful ]

check out my good friend jay smooth and his brand new video blog at http://www.illdoctrine.com. endless hilarity.

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GRRR, so glad that bellsouth is now AT&T [14 Jun 2007|09:31am]
[ mood | annoyed ]

Chat Information Thank you for your patience! An AT&T, sales representative will be with you shortly.
Chat Information You are now chatting with Natasha, an AT&T, sales representative. How may I help you place your online order today?
OMG: OMG please tell your usability specialist that it is in poor taste to have this window pop up multiple times on every page of your orderpath AFTER i have clicked "no"
Natasha: Ok.
OMG: now i am going to call to order my phone because i can't get through your orderpath.
OMG: thanks!
Natasha: Thank you for choosing AT&T. Have a great day.

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grarrr [03 Apr 2007|09:22pm]

grarrr
Originally uploaded by Marynificent.
dear mommy,

i am having lots of fun at mary's house. mary is teaching me all about proper etiquette. for instance; i have learned that biting the hand that feeds you is rude. also, i have learned that dust bunnies are not delicious. you will be happy to know that the kitties have been most kind. i had no idea that rolling around in their food bowl might offend, yet they handled themselves with utmost grace, and i never for a moment felt ashamed. i am fortunate to have such a hospitable environment in which to grow my social skills.

love,

pika

p.s. please send treats

p.p.s. i have pooped everywhere
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[01 Dec 2006|03:50pm]

Difficult things to say when drunk. [02 Oct 2006|07:47pm]
[ mood | amused ]

sent to me from my dear british friend aaron, who read these in the most eloquent of accents. Next time we meet for drinks, I am bringing the list:

1. Things that are difficult to say when you're drunk...

a) Innovative

b) Preliminary

c) Proliferation

d) Cinnamon

e) Anonymous


2. Things that are VERY difficult to say when you're drunk...

a) Specificity

b) British Constitution

c) Passive-aggressive disorder

d) Transubstantiate

e) Instantaneous


3. Things that are DOWNRIGHT IMPOSSIBLE to say when you're drunk...Collapse )

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[12 Apr 2006|12:03pm]
[ mood | cheerful ]

My dearest Adrina Rose, how far we have come from your trepidacious arrival, six years ago today. You, my little rose, remain steadfast of heart and mind; your laughter and joyous consumption of the world around you bathing my oft unpropitious perception in a bold new light.

This year, I am most proud to have given you a home. It seems almost insurmountable to consider where we are from whence we came, a statistical anomaly and in defiance of both order and orders, we are here today. I am so amazed by you, the way you have blossomed and shone through silted sands and in how the sparkle in your eyes is matched by none. Everyone who meets you is impressed and adoring, and you should never accept less.

It brings me so much joy to give you what you deserve; my cup runneth over to see you embrace that which is pinnacle in my life with your inquisitive enthusiasm. This year, you learned about Africa, about AIDS. You grew to understand abject poverty, to experience compassion and empathy. You learned about hurricanes, and how losses are not measured in bodies or homes, but in shockwaves of societal failure, how well we learn from mistakes, and in how selfless or selfish we are as individuals. You used sarcasm for the first time, slept with a kitty curled at your side, and lost your first two teeth. I love you more than anything, and recognize that my life would be substantially lacking without your little hand in mine.



You are everything to me, and always will be.

HAPPY 6TH BIRTHDAY, ADRINA ROSE!!



One year ago:
http://marynificent.livejournal.com/152282.html
two years ago:
http://www.livejournal.com/users/marynificent/99618.html
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[26 Nov 2005|12:47pm]
[ mood | gloomy ]

Oh gosh, sometimes things are so beautiful to me that my heart swells inside my chest and i feel like i can't contain it; this beauty, all around and dripping from each crevice and filling the open space with delicious golden yellow light. every single thing, from some perspective, is so stunningly beautiful that it will take the air from your lungs and words will hang in your throat. i want to capture all of it, but i can't. i can't show you what i see; how the veins in a single leaf can memorize me and how when the setting sun hits the Autumn reddened tress that they explode in rich warm colors that put fireworks to shame.

















Why do i allow so much other ugliness to cloud my life? There are so many things that bring me joy and laughter readily available and willing, yet i concern myself with the dark, the unfortunate scenarios that bring me far greater pain than one should take in transience. it is hard to remind yourself that you should not always feel things so deeply, that most does resolve with time.

i miss todd terribly. This time of year, it is so hard for me to remain positive. while the cold air does wonders for my personality, i think that the inherent sleepiness and solitude of winter drives me to crave attention that i would not otherwise want or need. love me, love me.
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[12 Jul 2005|10:31pm]
[ mood | devious ]

I have been filled with the urge to be naughty and outrageous - i don't know if this is a result of feeling so fantastic after that horrible illness last week, or that it is summer, or that i am just a naughty person in general. I keep wanting to take risks and be bold, more so than usual. it is somewhat delicious; there is always such an appeal in doing the atypical, and it truly fills me with a sense of life like nothing else can.





Adrina is starting REAL school this fall. I seriously cannot believe it. Me, the mother of a kindergartner. I can't believe how amazing she is some days; the way that she sees the world and takes in information. She told me very matter-of-factly not too long ago while we were shopping, "Mommy... People are strange... When you're a stranger." She loves Goldfrapp, Trance, Kylie, though does not care for hip hop. She laughs hardest while misbehaving, I wonder where she picked THAT up, HA.





I just want every single day to be amazing and new and exciting. there is so much in this world to touch and see. the wind through my fingers and decisive tickle of a laugh in my throat, sometimes i just think of all i have in the world still to know, the amazing and exciting and new, and i just want to burst from happiness at the prospect.

I never want to lose this perspective, get lost in the bills and reports, or forget that every single second holds unlimited potential.
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY [12 Apr 2005|01:13pm]
[ mood | bouncy ]

My daughter, Adrina Rose, turns five today. She is the most phenomenal little creature that I have ever encountered. I see so much of myself in her; the good, the bad, and I want so much for her life. I wish for her happiness, on this, her birthday. I wish that she never forgets to laugh about the things she can’t control, to laugh about the mistakes she will inevitably make, to laugh about the troubles she will encounter, and to cry when her heart is heavy.




I wish this above all else: I want my little girl to know herself and to know what she wants. True happiness can never be achieved without direction and desire, and those desires are useless if they are misplaced.

Happiest of birthdays and all days, Adrina Rose.

one year ago: http://www.livejournal.com/users/marynificent/99618.html
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Yay! [12 Apr 2004|11:35am]

HAPPY 4TH BIRTHDAY, ADRINA ROSE!!!!!




Since I became aware of your tiny presence, you have been the catalyst for everything good I have done in my life. You've taught me more in your short time than I could ever hope for, and you continue to amaze me constantly with everything from the sparkle in your eye to your passion for creating your own language rather than learning Italian. You have taught me that I cannot do for you without doing for myself, and I am a much happier person for having you in my life. I love you so much, and I am so thankful to have someone as incredible as you by my side.



I hope that you always know my love for you is unconditional, my opinion of you will never waiver, and that you can always trust me - above all else. I want to be your champion, your best friend, your mommy, your protector, your educator, your companion, and your hero.



I love you, babydoll, with all of my heart and soul. Happy birthday, today, and always.
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